tetap percaya

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walau terluka hatiku
ku akan bertahan dengan semua beban
walau terluka hatiku

kala senja telah hilang dan tenggelam
kala hati tlah terluka dan terbuang
sekuat mungkin ku akan membuktikan
bahwa hati itu luas tak berbatas
jika senja pasti akan tergantikan fajar

aku percaya aku bertahan yee
walau terluka hatiku

kala senja telah hilang dan tenggelam
kala hati t’lah terluka dan terbuang
sekuat mungkin ku akan mebuktikan
bahwa hati itu luas itu tak berbatas

kala senja telah hilang dan tenggelam
kala hati t’lah terluka dan terbuang
sekuat mungkin ku akan membuktikan
bahwa hati itu luas tak berbatas

jika senja pasti akan tergantikan fajar

i want to be loved

the person i love the most doesn't love me back...

he cheats on me so many time,
he send them song, romantic email, blogs, post, put it on his status,
watch movies with them, go for a romantic escape with them....
something i never get from him...
something i get from other person...

and why am i still staying with him? simply, because i love him...
foolish it is... but i want to be loved by him...
i want everytime i see his eyes, i know he loves me and i know i'm the only one...
for the rest of my life...

4 days to go and truthfully, i'm not ready...
knowing he doesn't love me...
it will be the same thing just like what happened with mom and dad...
i'm hurt badly for i wish for one love that is pure and true,
i use to have it indeed, someone who love me pure & true... it just that i can't love him back...
i can't...
should i stay with someone whom i love or should i stay someone who love me, only God knows..
but for me, it better to stay alone, only me and my baby...
the two of us has love that is greater and strong to survive,
if you're staying because of nara, please don't do so...
he is loved enough, by me and by God..
we're good, with or without you...
you're staying will only cause him pain cause he'll knows daddy doesn't really love mommy...

i just want to be love, i just want to be the only one...

i wish it's you....

i wish... i wish it's u whom i love

for you are true

for you are real

i know i can always trust you

i know i can always rely on you

i wish it u, whom i fell in love with

i know you will always reach out for me

no matter where i am, no matter where i go

but its not you whom i love

its not you whom i spend the rest of my life with...

i wish its you, but its never gonna be you...

dear you,

i don't love you...
but i love the way you love me...
you always make me feel that i'm loved...
the love that i never get from the one i love the most...
i see me in your eyes, i see love in your eyes...
i always know that wherever i am when i need you the most, u'll be there and saved me...
i wish i could tell you this but i can't...
i just love the way you love me
but i'm sorry i can't love you back.

Edward vs Jacob

I miss Jacob... my Jacob...
I miss... the feeling of being loved by someone...
I miss... his honesty....
I miss the fact that he will come for me no matter where i am...

Crushed and Broken

I've been giving my all...
ad what i get is betrayal over betrayal...

Lord, I don't need this... I don't want this anymore...
Lord you can just take my life away....
That's all that I need...

a Father's pride

Something went up to my head, a scene when i was asking my friend's dad on how his daughter field assignment was and the way he answered it is a bit shocking for me. I was expecting a warm conversation at the time but his answer turn me off at the time.

He look at me, rise his head a bit high, fixed his big old glasses and with a very arrogant tone he tells me "She was doing much better than the one replaced by her" and then there it goes the arrogant smile of a father. I don't have any relation with the daughter field assignment but then it makes me think. Then I realized something, i guess that how father really are... I mean they are arrogant when it come to their princess while it is somehow harder for their baby boy to pleased the father. I wish my father had that pride and arrogancy on me, but then again... i have nothing my father can be proud of...

wishes...

.... PENGEN KURUS!!!!! ....

I dedicated a song

from the bottom of my heart....

Rihanna - Take a Bow

How bout a round of applause?
Standin ovation...
Ooooh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please)
Just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
(You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run
(Please)
What else is on?
[ Take A Bow lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Ohhhhhh And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe
That you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech
Oh...

How bout a round of applause?{laugh}
Standin' ovation.......

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
Now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining' eyeahhhhh
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

Glenn Fredly - Terserah

Jangan kau ganggu hidupku lagi
Sudah jelas kini yang kau mau
Kau sakiti hati ini 'tuk kesekian kali
Memang ku cinta namun tak begini

[*]
Dimana arti sebuah kesetiaan
Bila hanya dalam kata-kata
Ku coba untuk bertahan
Namun aku tak sanggup
Sungguh tak mampu sayangku

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Terserah kali ini
Sungguh aku tak kan perduli
Ku tak sanggup lagi
Jalani cinta denganmu

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Biarkan ku sendiri
Tanpa bayang-bayangmu lagi
Ku tak sanggup lagi
Mulai kini semua terserah

Microsoft indonesia technical support sucks

Wat a day, this morning suddenly i can't enter my windows n a pop up tells me to insert d product key 4 my vista. I found out that my product key is blur because of water so i can't input it. I straight away call microsoft indonesia n it tell me to call tech support special no, i call n i call, 1x, 2x, 3x.... 100x its either busy or doesn't pick up. I hate to say diz but microsoft sucks! They pride of all d technology they have n yet they can't even pick a phone call. Shame on you microsoft!

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Goodbye basketball, helo badminton

Badminton is on again, at least in my neighboorhod. In front of my lil green house used to be a basketball field and now they make it a badminton field. And people play there until 2am, maybe i should charge them, it will good business. Me myself haven't have a go with this badminton thing. When were ur last time playing badminton? Well mine was during my junior high which is 10 years ago. Maybe next time i go to carefour, i'll buy a racket. I think i have d talent to be d next badminton idol. After batik now badminton, i think d old is new again. Have a blisful day. Gbu

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